Friday, June 16, 2006
to whom it may concern
thnx for the message ystd
well it seems like a fairy tale is gonna end for me
...it was hard...playing the fool....i was in u were not
seems that wat i dreamt of was wat ya avoided
now the thing is clear
i still want your care concern and frenship
is it possible?...for u maybe...hu knows?
for me i have resentment and bitterness flowing inside myblood
a once warm blooded kid now a man with bitter icicles in the veins
i was hoping u can feel it....i wan u to talk to me but i hate talking to you
someone save me from this cruel bitterness inside me
maybe time will melt the coldness of me but how do we counter bitterness?
it seems that i want to forget u but is it ever possible?
well these past 9 months was really a roller coaster ride....i've been taken high and been sent back crashing down again...wonder y life is so brutal to a person's mind and body
maybe wat i need to do is to forget abt it and be strong
a strong front? nothing but a facade od nothing....an empty shell of a human
well yup life has been fair
well yesterday was certainly one hell of a day......it was a really really happy day but it juz turned bad...really bad...a crazy roller coaster ride...yup a great time u picked for the message..anw the sooner the betta...so that i would not be the fool anymore
u told me:believe in god....16 yrs.....well i'm still me...a hopeless life
have i seen the light?....trying...but never.
maybe something's are really not meant to be.....last night i stayed up....i was thinking
straighten up u r a man dude!....yup a man who have every ounce of confidence and pride drained out of him.
you said to be frens...easy to sayFRIEND!
but no matter how i try...i noe i look at u with hatred sadness bitterness behind that friendliness
the closest strangers in the world.....to the days when i was i...you were you.
i wld want to salvage this situation...give me time...time heals
If time is not enough...it doesn't matter....maybe i will never see you again after this year
and maybe in the future...we may crossroads...by then we wld be erased from each other's minds......living our own lives
well life is in our hands it depends how we use it...juz want to tell u this much
The lAst Signing Off,
~LEGENDston~
it got me home
3:40 AM
